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This is not what I live my life for. And until I find that something to live that life for, I don’t think I truly will consider myself happy and complete.

Law school’s draining the hell out of me. emotionally. im a certified professional crammer. i don’t study ahead for recits, i don’t study ahead for midterms or finals. i don’t know if my study habits have something to do with it, but yung kumpyansa ko sa sarili when taking exams, parang it’s slipping away. worse, the less confidence i have, the more possibility i’ll answer all the questions wrong. argh. nego, i knew the provisions, but wasn’t able to recall a commentary so i screwed one 10-point number. nonetheless, i still love nego. nakakalitong masaya haha, weirdo. partnership, i knew the requisites, just got it all messed up the way i explained them. looking back, my answers didn’t make sense. tsk tsk. kulang sa mastery dahil di ko masyado inaral, napakahirap naman kasi aralin. di absorbable ung codal and yung subject matter, walang context, walang kwento.

tomorrow is crim pro day. a close second favorite to nego. i just wish i’ll get my act together so i can study with my whole heart. nakakainis. i feel i’ve really been mediocre lately. and just when i said i won’t let "accounting" happen again. eto nanaman, mag-reregret nanaman after that i did not give it my all when i could have. but it’s not too late i guess. madame pang midterms to come. kailangan magAral. can i just say im treating my study of the law as a labor of love? Coz i know i couldn’t pay back the hardwork my parents are exerting just to let me continue my studies here. and everytime i commit a mistake, i get hurt because im one step farther from my goal of giving my parents the best gift they can get out of my stay in law school–that is, giving them good grades and making myself the best person that i can be through my study of the law. ang hirap talaga mag-seize ng day! you get tired with all the pressures whirling around you. it’s just so crazy.

tama na. aral na ko crim pro. wish me luck friends. i hope i’d find myself and find comfort in my quest for one of my first true loves.